blackbird
hiding in a privet bush
drunk teenager
© Rachel Green March 2023
what is the threshold
between collector, hoarder and just liking stuff?
The floors are clear,
except for my shoes (four pairs for
dogwalking, gym, house, errands)
and the detritus of the dog's play
(chewed toys, stuffing, tennis balls)
but in the living room are piles of possessions;
bowls of things divested from pockets,
teetering piles of books
that will probably never be read.
The bathroom is normal daily grime
but has stacks of plastic bottles
shampoos and conditioners, hand soaps and scrubs.
The loft is full of boxes;
art materials, games, collected weapons;
all are signs of me clinging to a past
that will never return
(although I'm glad I kept the kimonos.)
I know I'm a digital hoarder.
Music, films, programs, writings;
all sit on external hard drives
but I don't feel so bad about those.
All can be disposed of with an unplugging
or a house fire and nobody cares
about old photos of my deceased parents.
But my overriding anxiety says
"What will the new cleaning lady think?"
© Rachel Green March 2023
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